Naked Suffering

This morning, from under a cloud of the heavy weight of suffering, I think of God.

I can’t say I particular feel God right now, but I do think of Him.

Some soul sufferings and wounds are such that they can only be seen when we are undressed; battle wounds not visible through whatever type of “uniform” we wear to cover up.

I think of the verse that says we aren’t given more than we can bear:
“No temptation has overtaken you, except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” – ‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭10:13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

But really, it is speaking of temptation, not suffering.

Every day we are surrounded by people suffering beyond what they can bear, and some days, we are the ones witnessing our own inability to endure.

When I think this morning about the God I cannot feel right now, I think about the idea that He is inside of me–seeing from the inside, through my eyes and thoughts and feelings–with complete understanding.

I think about the idea that right now, He is carrying me though I feel the dead weight of my own being.

How can it be, that I bear such weight of paralysis and painful disappointments but yet I am being borne by Him?

I don’t know.

Lastly, I think of Jesus on the cross. He was stripped naked, when He bore our sorrows and carried our griefs. Yet here I am, seemingly all covered over with (and in) my own sufferings.